okay so i moved back to xanga. sue me. myspace... well, its still open for comments & shit, but i'm too lazy to write any back. especially since my computer is gay and it takes forever to download all yawl retards html shit. so here i am. i'll write something thoughtful tomorrow. bye.

haven`t written my shit in a while. here`s my two cents. untitled. [thinkin of callin it eyes]

the window to the outside world  l i e s  in the eyes of the person who can see. there is more in a state of blindness than there is in a state of sight. not literally speaking of course. for who can see beyond the walls of their eye sockets. if only a 180 rotation was possible for those pupils. then one can see whats truly beyond the gauges of their skull. a story? an answer? new questions come to surface. is what you see yours. it may be in your possession. but who is the true owner. use what your eyes tell you for your advantage. although they may be deceitful. lying. a constant annoyance. no one can see past for they give it a whole 360 too quickly. neverending contemplating with no motivation makes NOTHING. is nothing what those objects your pupils see. nothingness.  e m p t i n e s s . unwholesomeness. stories of this world are often told untrue. inc mplete. theres always two sides of  a story. and a nonstop attempt to figure them out. concepts that very few are able to comprehend. but who am i to speak if i am, and may never be able to understand. take a second. take a minute or an hour. however long it takes. find out who you are. all matter has volume. put that volume to good use. your arteries pump blood away from your heart. unintentionally. is that what Y O U  are doing? no. being too  s i m p l e  can lead to complexity. eyes are given for a purpose. just a handful make the best of it. the narrowmindedness of the shallow show an undying list of how to put these eyes for wrong doing.  J U D G E M E N T . the only eyes of judgement belong to the omnipotent. which brings us back to the beginning. there will always be unanswered questions. are you sure you want to answer yours.

its funny how i can ramble on and on about things. hmm. tell me if you understand.

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FELiZ CUMPLEANOS CHRiS ELCHiCO !! sept. 11.... umm. i owe you

 fuuudge nuckles !! i had to delete every friggin thing on my computer yesterday !! so i have no files as of aug/03 to now! wtf ?! im trying to put on my realplayer for this damn computer, but the stupid piece of shit wont make a sound. the only thing i fixed from this damn computer today was the dsl connection. yehhh babyy !! this shit is fast now !! *excited* omg! the lady i was talking to at technical support to help me with my computer was getting mad at me! cuz she asked me for the modem number, and she sed it was on the bottom of the modem. so i was looking at the big modem thingy [which drei calls a "tower"] and i thought it was on the bottom of it. and the lady was askin for the friggin modem number, and im like the big modem? its too big to tip over! and she was getting frustrated! so i was like, is it on the side? and shes like NOOO its on the MOOOOODEMMM!! [stop laughing drei, i know youre laughing] and then i FINALLY found the modem, but it took me another 5 minutes to figure out where the number was. thats pretty sad. so yeah, busy weekend coming up. confirmation is starting on sunday. FUCK ! this is my last year! if my mom didnt put me a year late i would be done with that shit by now ! arghs ! i just can`t wait to be around a bunch of religious junkies preaching about satan knows what! cuz i shure as heck dont. and tomorrow i have the usual piano lessons, which goes as predicted: i forget to bring one of my pieces, teacher yells at me. i start getting confused on reading ledger lines, teacher yells at me to keep up with my theory and sight reading. teacher notices i changed my nailpolish color again, teacher yells at me to cut my nails. forget to pay the bill cuz i have better uses for cash that my parents give to me, then teacher talks to my parents. ha, same old same old. i never get sick of that shit tho. good thing my teacher has an accent, otherwise i`d have nothing to laugh at. oo tomorrow is also the birfffdayy of my good friend chris elchico!! mann this kidd is cool !! i met him at church, so fa` sho` this kidd is a good boii ! haha, well even tho` i know he ain`t gon` read this, i just w`na say happy birthday to ya ! confirmation wouldn`t be so fun if you weren`t there to act like a fob w. me ! im lookin` forward to sunday wen we could be stupid and piss of nancy again with our neverending laughter! its funny cuz half our group is filipino, and the other half dont know what the hell we`re sayin wen we start speakin tagalog. ohh man fun times! fcuk, one thing im not lookin forward to is the retreats! i HATE bunkbeds! i HATE sleeping in a room with more than 2 people! and i HATE waking up early in the morning just so i can PRAY! egad, i better stop now before some of you start thinking im a satanist or something. cuz im not! i love jesus! without him we wouldn`t be here! he friggin sacrificed his life just so we can live our sorry lives, but in the end burn in eternal damnation anyway ! whoot whoot! im so enthusiastic ! yay mom, im gonna burn in hell in repence for all my sins! yay ! damn, i just keep rambling on and on. oo i passed by keyboarding test today ! NO ERRORS!! whoot whoot, in yo` face, and it helps if the teacher loves you. hahaha. ahh why isnt my musicmatch jukebox not playing?! flatscreens amuse me. i shall buy more! oo i want a friggin wireless mouse! those things are so cute! dreii is singning the circle of life right now. what a loser. hes even using a girl voice. what a FAG ! lol. urgh, oh yeh, school... should i talk about it? ummm, well nathan dragged me and julia to the rally. hip hop team was pretty good. and omg, i never knew that brenda can shake her uhh... tailfeather. haha. everything else was kinda errr. julia sat next to me, she looked bored as hell. nathan was trying to tickle me. didnt work. so i bit him. the whole rally, was asking for food. ohh. and at brunch, me and julia were standing there. and some guy who julia thinks is cute was like 3 feet in front of us eating his sandwhich and drinking from a juice box. and we both were just looking at him. and he passes by me and tips my baseball hat. i was just like okaay, that was weird. i dont even know the dude and he tips my hat ! yehh, is that the new "pop the collar" thingy? julia laughed. i wanted his sandwhich. re-reading 1984. love that book. okayy gta talk to dreiiiiiiiiii now. bye folks.